I remember Lego blocks, video games and Christmas socks
And long walks on dead-still mid-summer nights
G.I. Joes, Godzilla flicks, cosmic heavy-metal licks
Now all contained in views of distant lights
Well now my life is in full gear, but one day life will disappear
I only hope these memories will count
If I choose my own destiny, the question on my mind should be:
To what does even the perfect life amount?
I’ve been searching my mind, hoping to find room for my soul
Therapists think I’m okay—“Son, go chase your dreams,” they say
But all I want to be is more awake
Twelve steps to achieve success, fulfillment, and happiness
But what if more than my happiness is at stake?
I’ve been searching my mind, hoping to find room for my soul
I don’t keep me alive—I was born and I’ll die, so why take control?
I’ve been searching my mind for room for my soul
I’ve been hoping to find a place it can go
If I can’t find it there, I’ll go out of my mind
Hoping there’s something out there of the infinite kind
Of the infinite kind…
See they say everyone’s got their own thing, their own special song to sing
Well all my special songs are on “repeat”
And it’s not a lack of self-esteem, it’s not depression or bad dreams
It’s an existential pathology
I’ve been searching my mind, hoping to find room for my soul
I don’t keep me alive—I was born and I’ll die, so why take control?
I’ve been lost in my mind, desperate to find room for my soul
Am I living a lie? Was I born just to die, or is there some eternal goal?
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